Baby Momma

My younger sister has just recently had a baby.  This little miracle was quite a surprise for us.  I will never forget the mix of emotions when she told me her huge news.  I was in Thailand, Skyping with her and had no idea how to react.  So what do I do?  I immediately burst into tears and started laughing simultaneously.  I knew that this was not really in her plans just yet.   She still had one semester left in college and had a laundry list of things that she wanted to do before starting a family.  But, I also knew that her passion and zest for life, her ability to be open minded, and her great capacity for love would be the perfect combination for motherhood.

I think that something as huge as an unplanned pregnancy can really flip someone's world upside down.  As I tried to be supportive during the range of conflicting emotions that I witnessed during those many months of pregnancy, I knew that I wouldn't always have the right things to say.  I also knew that everything would work itself out and she would figure out how to take on this new role as a momma.        

Now, it's not an exaggeration when people talk about Baby Fever.  I am nearing thirty, my clock is ticking, and I am anxiously waiting and ready for that next chapter in my life that includes Baby.  Having a younger sibling have a baby does not help this feeling.  I want a baby now more than ever because I want to be able to share this similar experience with my sister, as well as have our babies grow up together, as cousins and friends, close in age.  God bless my very patient husband.  My need for having a baby has probably gone into overdrive and he has been so loving and supportive.

As much as I want and need a baby of my own, I never felt jealousy towards my sister for being blessed with a child.  She has truly given me the best gift by granting me the sweetest nephew and godchild.  But, my favorite part about this journey that I have witnessed with my sister, is seeing her bloom into an amazing woman and mother.  She is patient with her son, even though I know that there are moments that are completely overwhelming.  I have never seen her more loving or caring.  And one of the greatest moments was when she told me that she has never felt more fulfilled and content.  That is more than anyone could want for a loved one.

I pray that one day, God will bless hubs and I with a child of our own.  Until then, I will enjoy being a godmother and taking notes from my sister as she continues to grow and excel in her role as a mother.